I think we can all agree to experiencing feelings, at multiple points in life, where we’ve thought “this is definitely not how I pictured things panning out.”
I’ll be turning 26 in a little over a month. *selah*
I’m inching in, ever so fiercely, as someone you’d describe as “that girl with the brown hair (that desperately needs to be trimmed), short, mid to late 20s, but still dresses like she’s 18.”
Emphasis on the mid to late 20’s part………..
(cue everyone over the age of 26 rolling their eyes in utter disgust)
Recently i had a conversation with a friend of mine about our ages and how much has changed over the years. When we first met, we were both at the ripe age of 17. We had eyes full of life, ridiculous wardrobes and horrible haircuts. I guess that’s beside the point, but pretty honest picture nonetheless.
Fast forward 9yrs:: and our conversation a few days ago was about how we would’ve never thought back then, that we would be doing what we’re doing, now.
Certain areas of life aren’t at all how we pictured them being or how we saw them playing out. We talked about the past 9yrs and the times we felt most rescued and known by God and also the times we felt most confused and disappointed. In the midst of processing we realized how seamlessly these times were all tightly wound together. The good the, the bad, the ugly – they were all knit together with the same thread of grace and mercy, extending an opportunity for character to be refined, hearts to be humbled, and goodness to be seen and leaned into.
We found that His leadership created boundary lines in our lives that fell in much more pleasant places than we initially thought and also in places we wouldn’t expect. Because when he works “all thing together for the good” – it doesn’t always mean the kind of “good” you and i had in mind.
Our conversation reminded me of something I heard Beth Moore say in one of her messages:
“Out of God’s astounding grace, a very imperfect person can still receive a delightfully perfect gift precisely because it’s perfect for them. God’s gifts are given with goals. They’re perfect because they’re perfecting.”
I love that reality and perspective. That God’s gifts and His leadership aren’t perfect because they’re exactly what we want when we want them, but they’re perfect because they’re given by a God who knows exactly what we need we when need them. He knows exactly what will benefit our hearts most assuredly.
And today i am hopeful and reminded again, that His gifts aren’t given for my temporal satisfaction and enjoyment alone, but they’re given for the perfecting and refining of my heart, so i can love Him and serve Him more recklessly today than i did yesterday…
They don’t just give today.
They give toward every tomorrow.